okay okay... i know its fast. already one month in MMU. wanted to ask me how am i? how's my life? seriously im quite tired on answering these questions edy cause many adult been asking me this. how am i? okay lor. i dont know why my friends all are enjoying their life in uni and they are very busy. as for me i dont think i am as busy as them and of course i hope i am busy. i want to busy myself with a lot of activities but im afraid for now im quite disappointed. MMU didn provide me the uni life wanted and imagine for all this time. what i wanted? college life like what i watched in drama or move of course. haha a lot of prom night. or maybe a lot of party and activities, camp and all those stuff. perhaps CLS activity havent started yet. for now the activity waiting for me is Famine30 which is coming very soon and also EJ Concert 3.0. before this i keep wondered why all my senior which started their life in uni and college are all busy with assignment. i mean... what's assignment? assignment only mar?! LOL seriously now i understand. im buried in assignment and its driving me crazy seriously. when there is one assignment you will feel okay with it. CHEH! nothing only lar. but when each subject assignment is out, this is why your head will burst. the introduction to law's assignment is quite troublesome to me. lecturer wanted us to find the malaysian cases related to contract law. yeap i found the cases edy. but i dont know how to start my assignment. i already seek for my senior guidance just now. and he said reading and understanding cases is quite new for me. means is okay if i dont know but how am i going to start my assignment?? GOSH!! for this sem there will not be any mid term test or whatever. hmm...is this a good news?? this mean that whether passing or failing this sem will all be decided on my final. shit! what if i cant answer well in my final? i mean i am a newbie right? how will i know the format of answering those question?
this week is the first week i started to learn to live with some stranger in my room. exactly, i have roommate. really quite hard for me to accept this at the beginning. i mean can you understand the feeling of living alone in a double person bedroom? with two beds two desk and so on. but now all my space are cut into half. and before this while i was alone int he room it was total private, i can do whatever i want. okay, this is not the main point, the main point is my roommate things is so untidy! and she has a lot of thing and she didn tidy up the bed when she woke up. argh! hang in there chayi. this is a lesson for you once you step out from your house door and step into this cruel and realistic world.
i dont know why today i miss yeen so much. hmm.. keep flashback the time when we are really good friends who share everything to each other and the time she came my house and we spent hours chatting. now, i dont know how is she and i feel like wanting to ask her how is she? how's your college life although is just a common and general question which even a stranger will ask. or maybe ask her who has been chasing you lately huh? have you fallen in love or something else. ahaha! after graduated many things change. yeap im disappointed on ivy she change so much. is like you never know what she is thinking and she will never tell if you didn ask her. sometime i quite curious is this friends are for? before i started my uni life, she said imform her once i bak tampin but now when i backed and i called her out she sure busy, but when betty them call her, she said she have tuition but in the end she will still showed up in their gathering. spot the difference? i feels like she quite a "two faces person" she is the one who said she dont like yeen this or what bla bla bla but still she is good. i know cant blame her on this cause we are a gang right? impossible for us to hate each other. okay, nevermind. but soemtimes she can say a person bad words at her back and also another person one at their back. what is wrong with her?? sort quite a lot of things about her just dont want to say it out. sometimes remain silent is the best way.
aaron texted me in wechat that day by showing me a pic his sis took with some stranger, i know lar the stranger a bit like me. hmm.. seriously im happy that he find me and i chat with him and also i enjoyed chatting with him. after all the bad things he done to me? wasn't all his fault, i was too stupid that time. waayyyy toooo stupid! i tried to control myself not to fall for him again during the chat. i wandered whether for so long i didn couple is it because of him or i really couldn't find the right one? katherine said i was controlling mysself not to chat with him cause inside my heart there is still a place for him. of course i didn admit but in the bottom of my heart i been asking this myself and also i think for somehow some way what katherine said was true also. haha he never change. of course he is better than before and he did change a bit. but bad is bad and habit is habit. it is not easy for a person to change into a good one totally plus he is a person with all bad habit. he still the same always sad and emo for the same thing over and over again. blaming himself after everything happened. never think twive before his action. i mean he is still him...
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